Summer Break

Literally this is a summer break...from Ally (she was gone for the summer!), from drinking, from school and its stressors.  Sydney was with her dad for 3 weeks and went to Colorado with the Callaghan as well as with our family for 5 weeks.  With her in our sights or our trusted friend's sight, she seemed to doing well.  Slowly, some trust built back up and it seemed as though these were the growing pains of freshmen year in high school, figuring out how to handle new freedoms and experiencing the consequences of her behavior. 

I had enjoyed the girls being with their dad and the quiet times with just me and God and digging into His Word.  I had been feeling pulled by God to dig deep and never was sure of the why or what He wanted but tried to be obedient. And of course, being in Colorado always brings me closer to God.  I don't know how anyone can go to Colorado and experience the mountains, sunsets, clouds, rain...and deny the existence of God.  I signed John and I up for equipping classes and myself up for an Equipped Disciple class at church. I cannot explain in words what that pull feels like.  A bug in your head, an urge in your heart that you HAVE to do something but don't know why, a supernatural urge that BURNS.  I shared that with people both in "Sharing Your Faith" and "Equipped Disciple I" that the reason I was there was that I felt like the Holy Spirit had been kicking me in the behind and I was just trying to be obedient.  I left EDI and on my way home I remember the thought, "He is really going to use me for something or I am about to get hit."